September 1st, 2010.
New month, new motives.
New project.
Daily meditations, daily musings, daily interactions with the visual.
To follow the last foreseeable chunk of time I can call a 'school-year'.
For now. Seems to me I'm a bit of an education junkie.
And "I'm a student" is such a wonderfully undeniable excuse.
No. I hereby abandon excuses.
No compromises, no affectations.
No mess in my mind.
Now decisive, now diligent, now livingbreathing creation.
To follow the path to the ideal self I envision in my head.
Which depends. My ideal self morphs and evolves all the time.
And I just can't say no to a good contradiction.
But I have to. I want to find my voice.
Without uncertainty, without ambiguity.
Without a timid lack of audacity.
To follow through with my youthful reveries of the remarkable and anomalous artist I was.
So I imagine. Maybe hindsight is more a rose-tinted 20/20.
And I just want to feel that present before it is past.
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